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Priorities
My priorities are constantly changing and it depends on what is happening now, what aspect of my life needs the most attention. If my mental health is suffering, that becomes my number one priority but if my relationships need work then that will be the number one. What are you suppose to do if all aspects need your attention right now? When I am focusing on something, that is I guess the perfect time for another part of my life to suffer just a bit
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Therapy Struggles
I have to find the best combination of meds for myself to feel better. Sometimes I feel nothing and that isn’t good for me or anyone else in my life. I am also considering what meds would work better if I wanted to get pregnant again for a second kid. There are some meds that are relatively safe and others that are not good in pregnancy. As always, consult your doctor before you get on or off medication.
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Too Many Roles to Fill
I have been listening to this song ever since it came out and it makes me feel a certain way. I described it to my husband like this: “Have you ever been bursting with rage on behalf of your ancestors?”. It is a really neat song about how historically, women have been made to fullfill many roles in society and are also devalued for their contributions. Let me know if you have heard this one and what you thought of it!
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More Nervous about Normal Results
I have my appointment with my gynecologist today and I am worried. It feels strange to say but I hope my hormones are out of whack because then I will have an answer. It’s like if you pay for an emergency room visit for nothing. You are glad you are healthy but upset you basically paid a lot of money for “peace of mind”. I don’t know if I am the only one who feels this but let me know if you do too!
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Planning Fatigue
I have been planning a few big projects lately and I feel a bit burn out. I have a few calendars I update and I just got a new Google Pixel so that should help me stay on track. However, I feel like I am on a rollercoaster track with no option to leave some days. After having a kid and buying a house, I really need to plan out my month ahead of time. I guess I’ll just have to plan my relaxation days as well. By that I mean play video games in my underwear!
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When it Rains, it Pours
I feel like I’m dealing with a lot of things at once. Most of the time, technology helps with planning but not always. I can set up as many calendars as I can and it reminds me of important dates but it also stresses me out! I feel like I want convenience and also to disconnect entirely. The world is a dichotomy of requirements and I feel like my brain is leaking out of my ears
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The Grind
I mentioned to my boss that I felt like a cog in the wheel recently at my job and I think that speaks to a larger issue in society in general. Many people are starved creatively speaking and that can create burn out and a general sense that you are mindlessly doing tasks over and over again. I guess that is where your hobbies come in to help you forge that creative outlet, but the most challenging thing is finding the time. We spend most of our hours at work and if you have kids/partner/pet, then you need to allocate time to them as well. I advocate for a 4 day work week and the 5th day is dedicated to a hobby you enjoy. That would be the ideal world for me, anyway
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Communication is Key
Ever since having a kid 9 months ago, my husband and I have been feeling the stress of working, cleaning, taking care of the baby, hanging with friends, checking up on family, paying bills, doing house renovations, etc. The most important thing to do is two fold. The first is to get professional help from a therapist because you need someone to talk to and unload on that is not your spouse. They are also going through it so to expect them to be a partner and your therapist is unrealistic. The second is communication and to do it in a smart way. That doesn’t mean to say anything in your head whenever you want, but it does mean that if something is bothering you then you have to speak up because otherwise it could breed resentment. Relationships take continuous work and anyone who says the opposite is probably selling you something
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Feeling Pretty Good
It is surprising how much better I feel when the weather gets nicer and I can open the windows in my house. Fresh air is obviously not a cure for depression, however it gets me out of my dungeon state of mind where I keep the lights off and huddle in a corner on my computer. On nice days like this, I like walking around an event like a festival or a famer’s market or something so I am walking but also staying engaged mentally. This is getting me excited for Ireland, which is in late June for my mom’s birthday. Anyone have any suggestions of where to visit in Ireland? We’ll be staying in Dublin but the trains go pretty much everywhere
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Home Renovation
I finally removed the wallpaper, painted, and removed the carpet in on of our rooms upstairs so we can finally use it! We are thinking of putting our daughter in the new room because it has more space and the lighting looks amazing now that the room is painted. My sister and mom helped out a lot to make it happen so I’m grateful for that. I am glad I am close with my family and we get along well, some people I know have family issues that affect them greatly. You just have to keep in mind that “blood of the covenant is thicker than water from the womb” which basically means that the bonds you make with other people are stronger than your genes.
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