blog
blog posts
-
Job Hunting
I know it’s a meme now, but I feel like I spend more time filling out forms than I do practicing coding so that I can actually pass a coding test. Motivation doesn’t just magically appear, I know I have to make motivation happen and work hard to keep it. Depression is making me not Continue reading
-
Finding a Purpose
It has been a week since I got laid off from my job, and it feels pretty weird right now. I am trying to fill up my time with streaming, cleaning, doing errands, and taking care of my child but it still feels like something is missing. I am afraid I won’t be able to Continue reading
-
Memorial Day with Family
Happy Memorial Day weekend everyone! I wanted to take this opportunity to reflect on my family members who have passed away who fought in various branches of the military. They did not die in battle, but they were a big part of my life and I wanted to share some fond memories I have of Continue reading
-
Unemployment
Well, it was the worst time to lose my job so of course it happened yesterday. It feels good to not have so much stress work-wise, but now I have a bunch of stress about not having money come in. How do you figure out what you want to do? I am not a hustle Continue reading
-
Priorities
My priorities are constantly changing and it depends on what is happening now, what aspect of my life needs the most attention. If my mental health is suffering, that becomes my number one priority but if my relationships need work then that will be the number one. What are you suppose to do if all Continue reading
-
Therapy Struggles
I have to find the best combination of meds for myself to feel better. Sometimes I feel nothing and that isn’t good for me or anyone else in my life. I am also considering what meds would work better if I wanted to get pregnant again for a second kid. There are some meds that Continue reading
-
Too Many Roles to Fill
I have been listening to this song ever since it came out and it makes me feel a certain way. I described it to my husband like this: “Have you ever been bursting with rage on behalf of your ancestors?”. It is a really neat song about how historically, women have been made to fullfill Continue reading
-
More Nervous about Normal Results
I have my appointment with my gynecologist today and I am worried. It feels strange to say but I hope my hormones are out of whack because then I will have an answer. It’s like if you pay for an emergency room visit for nothing. You are glad you are healthy but upset you basically Continue reading
-
Planning Fatigue
I have been planning a few big projects lately and I feel a bit burn out. I have a few calendars I update and I just got a new Google Pixel so that should help me stay on track. However, I feel like I am on a rollercoaster track with no option to leave some Continue reading
-
When it Rains, it Pours
I feel like I’m dealing with a lot of things at once. Most of the time, technology helps with planning but not always. I can set up as many calendars as I can and it reminds me of important dates but it also stresses me out! I feel like I want convenience and also to Continue reading
Recent Posts
About Me
A 30 year old streamer that loves to buy too many coffee table books, is never satisfied with her office setup, and wants to like cooking
Molly's Blog 