Molly's Blog

Life is a confusing mess of emotions and economic difficulties. I felt more introspective as of late when I started selling my blood for some extra money after I was fired out of the blue from my previous job. The predatory way employers post jobs that require a lot of experience for little pay or “side hustles” that target stay at home moms. I am here to understand why…

At many points in our lives, we come to a fork in the road both mentally or even physically that we must choose the correct path for us. This is difficult if you are having an identity crisis and cannot choose for yourself because you are not sure what you want.

This is where I am in my life. I had a baby a year ago whom I adore and love with all my heart. Going through childbirth and parenthood has changed me into a person I do not recognize, and I want to get to know them. Here are some questions I would like to ask myself and answer as fully as I can.

Questions to Ask your New Self

1. What makes you happy in your day to day life?

• I love waking up my daughter in the morning because her smile shines brighter than the sun and gets me pumped for the day ahead even if I am exhausted
• Video games that get me immersed in a fantasy world where my perspective on real life can change for the better
• My sisters arguing with each other and laughing because even though we are all different, we still find ways to make each other laugh and reminisce about our childhood
• My husband, who is my favorite person of all, coming home dancing in his scrubs thanking me for watching the baby and making dinner

2. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Even though I am 30, I still like to think that I have a lot of growing to do and a lot of time to do it. If you asked me when I was younger, I might have said a doctor when I didn’t realize the cost and time it took to get there.

Now, my dream job would be an actress even though it is not a viable way to make money. I would like my dream job to inform a more realistic career right now so writing might fit that mold because it allows me to be creative while also realistically making money for my family.

3. What is your favorite thing about your personality?

My favorite thing about myself is my sense of humor. Media and culture inform our senses of self so I can be just a combination of TV show references and jokes in Tik Tok, but I can also think on my feet fairly quickly and usually have a quip to anything that is thrown my way.

4. What are 5 things you excel at?

1. Picking up new video games
2. Making my friends feel better if they are down
3. Making people laugh
4. Googling (it’s a more important skill than people realize)
5. Sharing my own feelings on a topic in a concise and coherent way

5. What are 5 things you’d like to work on?

1. Being less of a procrastinator
2. Active Listening
3. Working out so I can have more energy
4. Less impulsive thinking (I have to stop going to Wawa to get iced coffees every other day!)
5. Appreciating what I have in life